So I put myself at ease by realizing that my boyfriend won’t be hanging out with my ex very much for much longer. My ex is going off to college and won’t be around so that’s good…

I’m trying so hard not to cut because prom is in two weeks or so and I don’t want to be covered in cuts…

What do you mean? My boyfriend or ex?
Idk why it matters for either…

so my boyfriend and I had a fight last night :/

I was being impulsive and scared so I told him not to hang out with my ex.

He got angry at me and wouldnt listen to me. I want him to understand how much it scares and upsets me that he’s hanging out with my ex… because honestly he’s not the greatest influence for my current boyfriend to have… my ex was abusive and we left on uneasy terms… I’m pretty sure all he’ll tell my boyfriend about me is negative stuff or stuff that will upset my boyfriend further.

plus what’s worse is I told him if he’s going to hang out with him at least I want him not to go and get drunk with him but I’m not sure if he’s going to listen to that… I’ve told him that now I don’t care if he hangs out with my ex but I just don’t want him getting drunk with him because he gets out of control when he’s drunk…

I don’t know if any of the people that follow this blog even care about me but

I’m craving cutting again

I wasn’t able to cut deep last time because my razor is dull… I’m paranoid that my boyfriend doesnt like me anymore

I hate myself and my life

I’ve been crying for the past twenty minutes or so and I can’t stop

just…

fuck my life…

not sure if I should tell my boyfriend I slipped up… I’ve told him about my past with self harm but I don’t think he knows it’s still an issue…

:/ Slipped up…. too much stress and mixed emotions right now…

I need to lose weight.

I just need to.

I’m way too chubby for what I’m okay with.

I need to drink more water and eat less for every meal.

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So I’m going on my first real/actual date?

All my other ones really shouldn’t count because the guy was a total asshole to me whenever I had a date

I’ll be seeing the Lorax c: I’m excited

So good news I guess?

This guy I’ve been crushing on might ask me out

I’m surprised he even likes me because he can do so much better x___x

So my girlfriend and I broke up :/

It was getting to hard for me to deal with the fact that she was keeping our relationship a secret from everyone…

but yeah now this guy is showing interest in me and I might go out with him? idk yet, we’re going to be hanging out at Sakura con on Saturday so maybe something will happen then